October 11, 2010

Goodnight Nightlife?

I'm going to previse this next post by saying some of you are going to see me in a new light...But it's my hope that it will be worth it for the point I intend to make.

Exhibit A

Yep, that was yours truly about 4 years ago. While I cannot claim to actually remember taking this photo, I do know it was one of the best times of my life ever!

How is that possible!!! How can I look back with such nostalgia on a period of my life where I made just enough money to pay for rent and Ramon Noodles. I drank alcohol and partied what seems like every night and still looked fantastic. The most pressing issue of the day was how come "he" didn't text me back!?

The cafe/restaurant where I currently work turns into a full on bar at night. I see young girls in their teeny tiny dresses and high heels dancing and flirting and I find myself jealous! This is what really gets me....ummm HELLO I'm only 24! I am fully allowed to do this too. I'm young. Why is it then that I have this complex that I should only go to swanky lounges or dive bars? I mean I do like those places and I LOVE being able to wear converse into a bar, but sometimes a girl just wants to feel sexy! I suppose it's because I'm in a relationship...after all isn't that the reason for wearing the tiny dresses in the first place?

Speaking of teeny tiny dresses, here's another gem from my past. I believe my dress was so short I brought a glue stick in my purse to ensure it stayed perfectly in place. After a few cocktails apparently I needed it.

Anyway, my point is...what changes? Why if I'm still young do I feel like I no longer belong in that circle? Is it being in a relationship? Is it the reality of just having more responsibility? These are questions I am determined to get to the bottom of.

Last night I had a very fancy dinner with my friend Courtney. We had a bottle of wine and a chef tasting. It was all very adult and proper. Yet, the topic of our conversation drifted to being young and reckless. I'm so torn. While one part of me wants to have wine, conversation, and dinner parties...the other part of me wants mini-skirts, 2 for 1 deals, and harmless flirting.

Hmmm, quite the pickle I'm in. Will this feeling pass? Courtney and I have decided to put these feelings to the test. We are going out on the town! Let me know your opinions on this...how old is too old? When is it time to hang up the mini party dress or play your last game of flipcup?